“Searching”

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Thank you for coming to this blog – I would like to introduce you to my second single called, “Searching.” I wrote this song when I wanted to explore the feelings I can get from time to time being in a long-term relationship. We don’t learn from a book how long-term relationships should work. We all usually look at what our families’ and friends’ relationships are like, those of our partner’s as well as our own. My life-mate and I have all kinds of examples, healthy and dysfunctional, to view with a non-judgmental eye…we pull from them what we want and what we don’t. Every relationship partners make their own rules for health and happiness, and so do we. 

To begin this exploration, I just did a stream-of-consciousness brainstorm of all the feelings I have at this stage in my relationship with my husband – 20 years now! I wanted to create with the soundscape of this song the flexing stages of grace and peace with confusion and longing. A longing for what we had in the past; what I long for in the future because there seems to be a growing pain happening in the present; and then the feeling of the resolve and effervescence of coming back together after traversing these mountains in our understanding of one another. We are always searching for the truth, looking at each other in confusion, anger, listlessness, and pain…but with deeply empathetic listening, we can also look with love, relief, kindness and understanding. I wanted to end the song with such resolve.

May you all experience joy and resolutions, intrigue and fun, in all the relationships you have on this planet.

Here are the lyrics for “Searching” for you to enjoy:

“Searching” by Kristine Moon

Hazy, clenching 

I see you in your duties

Burning my insides

Climbing up our new building

No more abandon, but

Clasping the never-horizon

Is it the same?

Do you call my name?

I am here

I hang here

I feel hard, I feel soft

I breathe deep trying to smell you

I still need you, I still need you. 

 

Searching for your 

Fingerprints you left in me

Is it a chore? 

The cinders from our chimney…

Remind me of our hearth

When your wool would wrap around me

Our windows are thick

Ice fractals can stick

I stoke it

You stoke it

We feel hard, we feel soft

We are always together

On this floor of ours

On this floor of ours.

 

Are you aching inside tonight?

Your eyes are open wide

We curl up by that fire

Whispers reassure me

We built that chair

We built that staircase

To climb up with our hands

We go outside

We pull our tides

In the warm, wet sand

Always shifting sandcastles from our beginning

A new moon sighs

A new moon tries

Kissing my closed eyes

Searching, finding, losing, and binding

A new moon thrives

A new moon ties.

 

That’s it, thank you, good people.

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